2024

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My favourite night of the year is 18 hours away

But an undeniable sadness has taken hold

I can’t sleep

Seems to be a thing lately

Something is whispering deep in my soul

Sending me a clear message

Don’t live in the past anymore

Ten years with this hole in my heart

I can’t do another year feeling this way

I’m imprisoned by memories of a love I can’t let go

Every single minute

Of every single day

To the outside world I seem

Behaved in a normal way

Grounded, smart and sensical

But in truth

I’d rather not be here

No drama

Just honesty

I am losing my belief in happy

If you can hear me God, please release me

One way or another

No one deserves to live this way

The only thing worse

Than loving without hope

Is knowing