It's a heart wrenching thing when someone whose world used to revolve around you, and yours around them, suddenly has no time for you. The I can't talk now's. The I'm just really busy right now's. The I'm too tired right now's. The I'm with my girlfriend right now's are clear tells that you've lost … Continue reading No Time
So I got the job. My job. The job I had to apply for three times and interview for twice, even though I have been working it for one and a half years. I should be excited, happy, or at least mildly elated. But I'm not. I'm grateful to the universe for the course correction. … Continue reading WTF #2
Is it just me, or is there a western-cultural-pop-music-trend toward obsessing over someone we can't have? Lately I've noticed that out of the 20 some odd songs that get ridiculously unlimited airplay, at least half the millennial crooners are talking about how they lament over one love while they are with another. I don't know if I've … Continue reading Is It A Love Song? Or Not?
I stand at the edge in despair. Dejected. Confused. Alone. A sullen spectator to the fading magnificence of my literary world. Ravaged and ruined by the conflict of rules contained within simple words of caution. A lone witness to the power in the invisible placement of intentional boundaries. I move. I shift. I aimlessly drift. Wide-eyed … Continue reading Battlefield
Found this today... Way too relate-able right now. I feel lonely. Like 98% of the time, I feel like I’m missing some connection with someone. I shouldn’t feel this way. I have friends. I have family. I am online and have online friends. But I constantly feel alone. I feel like I’m not understood, and … Continue reading Fellowship
Lately I've been feeling my personal/emotional worldview slipping from one kalidescope into another. Things I once knew with such certainty are now hovering on the fringe of doubt. And things I was absolutely positive would never be entertained by this seven dimensional mind, are springing into view lively and energetic. In part, I am saddened … Continue reading Internal Dialogue #1
On the bus again. Solitude beckons. Heartache shared. I've screamed. I've cried. I've left. I've hurt. I've breathed. I've let go. So many regrets Live inside the place Where Hope should have thrived. I am human. I've made mistakes. This bus ride Is not one of them. For weeks I've listened and watched The Canada … Continue reading Lonely Roads #2