sillyLove
Any day I see you
Is a good day
Any night I lie with you
Is a good night
When your eyes sparkle and dance
And your smile radiates with joy
And tells me that any day you see me
Is a good day
Then on that day
I am a happy happy puppy
Today the rain outside matches the pain in my heart. Damp, cold, softly and dully persistent casting a gray shadow over my life. I fell into a world I thought would embrace me because I wanted it so badly. I was so open to the new, to the experience and to any and all possibilities…save…
You touched me in placesI thought cold and weakDead blackened embersNever to be revivedYou ignited a sparkFed an aching hungerCreated an achingInsatiableWantingScreamingA fire now burnsA raging heatScorching the wiresThat connect my body electricAn unbearable weightNow burdens my lightnessHands clawing at the rawnessOf my open woundsHave I been carelessIn waking this need?Asleep once upon a timeContent…
I marvel at our capacity to feel so much for so long and then in a heartbeat, it’s gone. Nothing left but the cold, black numbness of indifference. If it’s meant to be a layer of protectiveness, a thing that kicks in for self-preservation, then I will embrace it. My skin is not so tough…
The euphoria of writing here again has been sweet. But too short lived. Re-engaging with this blog caused an unexpected and freakish anxiety I could barely contain for three friggin weeks. I couldn’t breathe. My lungs were tight. No air. No reprieve. No release from the madness that fought to control me again. I couldn’t…
These past few weeks have been spent in reflection, gratitude, and a terrible sadness. A sadness so great that today, had me lying in bed until one in the afternoon. The thought of getting up to face another day was just too much. I pulled the covers over my head and fell into the watery…