She smiled as I walked in the room. That slow simmer in her eyes as she drank me in from head to toe told me I’d been missed. My breath caught. My face flushed. I felt the curl of anticipation tighten my loins. I needed this. I needed to feel the missing again. I’ve missed you too baby, I smiled back. And dropped my bag silently to floor…
Sigh. Imagination is a wonderful tool…
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the state of my missing-ness. You know, that wonderful place inside that leaps with happy at the thought of seeing someone again. Whether it’s been a day or a lifetime. And I realize that as a hard core Gemini, I need that in my orbit continuously. Anticipation. Longing. Good old fashioned “missing you”. The stuff that keeps my twins glued side by side. And in harmony.
Ya. It’s a problem.
If I had to compare my zodiac selves they’d be sisters of opposing natures. Twins. But not alike. At all. One hard and defensive; a warrior and survivor. The other soft and inviting; the wanton seductress. One desiring to be mother, housewife and nurturer. The other brazen, sexy, the whore in bed. One afraid of commitment. Of limitation. Needing to soar. Inspired by freedom. The other wanting safety. Security. A life partner. Grounding.
A tireless and exhausting struggle for supremacy. Emergence a battle with every breath. With every thought. With. Every. Fucking. Feeling.
And I have yet to find The One who genuinely gets that. And is truly okay with my Mercury Girls. They are manageable. But they each have specific needs for expression.
My therapist had me do something akin to the Myers-Briggs test after our second session. Something to help her determine my personality type. My character traits. Things that are decisively me. The questions felt redundant after the 50th. But I persevered. Mindful of her not-so-hidden search for my suicidal tendencies. I had the strangest sense that I’d be committed if I answered those particular ones in the affirmative one too many times. So I didn’t. But the truth is, I do love life and have no real desire to end it. I just get overwhelmingly tired of it all at times…
The conclusive of this questionnaire is many-fold, but the bottom line is that I am a dichotomy. Her word. Not mine. Apparently, most of my character and personality traits are at odds with one another and shouldn’t coexist within one person.
Refreshing to hear confirmation of my self-evident truths.
Marilyn, Angelina and Drew.
Beautifully fucked up women.
All Gemini Girls.
The unabashed need for love.
And then I found this little ditty online…
Romance and Gemini women go hand in hand, but it is quite a task to get a Gemini woman to settle down for a commitment. Since stability and consistency are tangents to her personality traits, the idea of committing to a single person can be a daunting job for her.
Gemini women aren’t the criticizing types. As such, they find something good or positive in each person. And when looking for a potential partner, if you manage to stir a Gemini woman with your excellent conversational skills and strike a chord with her mental, spiritual and physical self, she’ll be yours forever.
Romancing a Gemini woman is like enjoying the company of many for she never is the same person twice. She may be exceedingly sweet one day, and the very next day might turn into your harshest critic and the following day compliment you for something she had just criticized the previous day. But once she meets up with her perfect partner, expressions of love take the primary seat.
She loves small sentimental gestures that keep the romance alive and the relationship kicking. In return, she’ll treat you beautifully by being your best friend, your sports partner, your racing competitor and your exciting, passionate lover, all at the same time.
The key to keeping your Gemini woman is by mentally exciting her and stimulating her senses by making her feel challenged and entertained. Just remember the phrase, catching is not the same as keeping when it comes to Gemini woman! So, if you have successfully managed to rope in a Gemini woman as your girlfriend, consider it a job only half done. If you can’t hold her interest for long, then, poof! she’ll be gone to seek greener pastures!
Lol…need I say more?
I think I’m finally getting to know my Gemini Girls. 😉