Giving Up

There are days when I wonder if any of this is real. Did I really come out at 47? And fail? Did I leave my unconditionally loving, loyal, family - the only true family I have - for a woman I thought loved me as much as I loved her? Did I fall in love…

Where Is The Peace In Love?

Through a strange and painful array of events, we have found that spark between us again. Both questioning it, mistrusting it and wondering what to do with it. Maybe it never left. Just hidden from the war. I'd like to think you can never really destroy true love. It just takes a hiatus from all…

Dark Mother

These past few weeks have been spent in reflection, gratitude, and a terrible sadness. A sadness so great, that today, had me lying in bed until one in the afternoon. The thought of getting up to face another day was just too much. I pulled the covers over my head and fell into the watery…

Hello Alice

Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?Cheshire: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.Alice: I don't much care where.Cheshire: Then it doesn't much matter which way you go.Alice: So long as I get somewhere.Cheshire: Oh, you're sure to do that, if only you…

Gratitude

I found music again! Wow. So very grateful. I've missed you! Thank you, Universe! And thank you to my Guardian Angel, of course. We've been talking alot lately. 👼🏿 At work this weekend. Saturdays are Clean-Your-Room Day. I used to hook up my iPod, crank out the tunes and dance around with my clients. They…

Old Bones

The euphoria was sweet. But too short lived. Re-engaging with this blog caused an unexpected and freakish anxiety I could barely contain for three friggin weeks. I couldn’t breathe. My lungs were tight. No air. No reprieve. No release from the madness that fought to control me again. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. But…