Giving Up

There are days when I wonder if any of this is real. Did I really come out at 47? And fail? Did I leave my unconditionally loving, loyal, family - the only true family I have - for a woman I thought loved me as much as I loved her? Did I fall in love…

I Can’t Get You Out Of My Head!

Have you ever had a song stuck in your head, and no matter what you do it will not stop playing? You wake up and it's there. You're not thinking of anything in particular and it's there. You go to sleep and it's there. Like 24/7 it's there?!!! Well, last week I was searching for…

Old Bones

The euphoria was sweet. But too short lived. Re-engaging with this blog caused an unexpected and freakish anxiety I could barely contain for three friggin weeks. I couldn’t breathe. My lungs were tight. No air. No reprieve. No release from the madness that fought to control me again. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. But…

New Beginnings

I promised myself that when I actually had a block of time I would sit down and revisit this blog. I'm in the middle of a two week stay-cay and I made a list of things that need doing. This was definitely one of them. To revisit this space that has been witness to me…