If you look long enough, hard enough, and deep enough, you may actually come to see who you truly are beneath the armour, behind the walls, beyond your limiting beliefs, and you might be pleasantly surprised. She’s never really seen The soft femininity The desirable, womanly curves The tempting, sensual mouth The slow, seductive smile…
Keeper of My Heart
She reached out to me recently, and I have been grappling with emotions from one end of the spectrum to the other. Anxiety gripped me to the point of not being able to sleep for two nights, but has since calmed into a place of silent truce. There is never a rational explanation for why…
Messages From The Universe
I’m still in a deeply depressed place, but it lifted a bit two days ago when the Universe sent me a message. It was around 10 pm, and I had to work early the next day. I was about to shut down Pinterest on my iPad and get ready for bed, when a message in…
Gaslighting and Other Lovely Forms of Emotional Torture.
At work. Feel like I'm always at work. In truth my schedule is ideal. Even tho my shifts are 12 hours long I do have half the month off. And while I am truly grateful for that, some days the shifts just drag and drag and drag! It's Halloween and my one client, who is…
Old Bones
The euphoria was sweet. But too short lived. Re-engaging with this blog caused an unexpected and freakish anxiety I could barely contain for three friggin weeks. I couldn’t breathe. My lungs were tight. No air. No reprieve. No release from the madness that fought to control me again. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. But…
My Blog. All Mine.
Eleven years ago I started this blog. For me. I knew nothing of blogging other than it might be a cool place to vent all the angst around my coming out. I thought it would be private, anonymous and freeing. And for a short time it was. I knew nothing about followers. And then I…
New Beginnings
I promised myself that when I actually had a block of time I would sit down and revisit this blog. I'm in the middle of a two week stay-cay and I made a list of things that need doing. This was definitely one of them. To revisit this space that has been witness to me…