At work. Feel like I’m always at work. In truth my schedule is ideal. Even tho my shifts are 12 hours long I do have half the month off. And while I am truly grateful for that, some days the shifts just drag and drag and drag!
It’s Halloween and my one client, who is super communicative and a social butterfly, is so excited about giving candy out tonight even tho she’s been told twice by the powers that be that there will be no giving out of the candy this year. I think she’s hoping her attempts at persuasion might fare better with me. Sorry kiddo. Thems the rules.
The house is in a pretty affluent area which has it’s own little community so there might very well be some trick-or-treaters tonight. We’re leaving candy out, but none of these guys are allowed contact. So, instead we had a 3 person party this afternoon with costumes – a Unicorn, Deadpool and Darla 😳 – along with treats and pop and lots of chocolate. And when there’s chocolate involved, these guys are good lol!
My heart goes out to them tho. They don’t truly grasp the whole pandemic thing and all of its implications. What they do know is that what little outings they are used to are all being denied. Which means we are all going a little stir crazy. I’m not sure if it’s a blessing or a curse to be informed. I really don’t want to know about the numbers creeping back up and all the people getting sick. My anxiety is truly being tested these days. And I know I’m not alone. So I’m saying prayers for all of us. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😊
One thing helping to keep me sane, and what is fast becoming a good new norm, are my weekly chats with my sister. This time the topic of Gaslighting came up. What the hell? There are so many terms out for what people do to each other in relationships that I can’t really keep up. Not sure I want to either. Hell, I didn’t even know what ghosting or gaslighting were until they actually happened to me. And even then I had to be told what was happening. 🤨
People are just generally not nice to eachother anymore it seems. I know there have always been manipulative assholes but I was lucky enough not to have been with any. Wait. Not true. There was one. Either way, since coming out that has all changed. 😏
I am newly horrified each time I encounter the cruelly inventive ways humans devise to torture eachother. Just watch a horror flick. Any horror flick. Or Criminal Minds. Loved that show but wow! It’s brutal what we can come up with to deliberately inflict pain on each other. But I was ignorant of the cruely inventive ways we have to torture eachother emotionally. It’s insane. There are way too many for my comfort. And I feel like I’m unwittingly making my may thru the list even tho I didn’t know there was one to make my way thru. 😳
I’m good now. No more please.
Ever get the feeling you’re just not meant to be in a relationship no matter how badly you want to give and receive love? 🥺
It’s all kinda messed up.
It’s a thing.
Alright. I’m off. Need to feed the gang. Mealtimes are our social highlight these days lol.
Stay safe and Happy Halloween!