My Coming Out Anniversary

11 years 11 days ago

I came out.

Though I didn’t know

I was going to do it

At the time.

A late bloomer

Newly married

It wasn’t planned

Or even a thing

I thought I would ever do.

There were no banners

No parades

No fanfare

No proclamations that

Trish’s life matters.

Just the carefree swagger

Of her jean-clad hips

And the declaration

Of a destined

Affair.

Her gaze

Could ignite the air

And fill it with

Such sweet

Anticipation.

Yeah…

She had me at hello.

Then broke me at goodbye.

Sigh…

Anniversaries. Unsung.

They’re a bitch sometimes.

πŸ₯°πŸΎπŸ₯³πŸ˜˜β€πŸ˜―πŸ˜”πŸ˜₯πŸ˜­πŸ’”πŸ˜Ά

I live.

I love.

I learn.

I write.

It’s who I am

And what I need to do.

She was my muse.

My heightened awareness.

And I miss

That connection

To my soul.

I don’t live in the past.

Anymore.

Or long for things that will never be.

Anymore.

But I will always remember

My beginnings.

My coming out.

And I honor it all.

The good. The bad. And the beautiful.

Cuz without all of that

I would not be

All of this.

πŸ™πŸ½πŸ¦‹β€

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16 thoughts on “My Coming Out Anniversary

      1. And I, you! I have always appreciated you and your encouragement. I’m doing much better than I have in the past. Granted, this morning I had a bit of a panic attack, but I handled my shit and moved on with finesse!

  1. You never cease to amaze me with your honesty and beauty. Your soul is wounded and it shows but you have the courage of a lioness and I respect and admire your ability to live it and voice it without fear. You truly are my hero and I hope to be more like you when I grow up. πŸ˜‰ This is such a powerful post and speaks volumes. I especially love the line…”Her gaze could ignite the air and fill it with such sweet anticipation.” Man! Every card carrying lesbian knows that look lol and you described it perfectly. Sending love and wishing you a happy coming out anniversary, Tdot. ❀

    1. Aww! Thanks Denny. It’s a bittersweet time for sure, full of lots of emotion. And yeah, I liked that line too. πŸ˜‰ Your words always touch me and make me feel at home in this space. Thank you for that. Hugz from across the pond! β€πŸ¦‹

  2. Life lessons and heart battles. So much being said here. Very nice! Happy coming out anniversary sweet woman. Namaste πŸ™πŸ½β€

    1. PS…the beginning of your message sounds like an invitation to write a post lol. I like the title: Life Lessons and Heart Battles. Can I use it lol?

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