So, I kinda fell off the wagon when I got my last and final rejection from her whose name I no longer speak. Yah, my emotional shit always gets in the way of my productive shit.
It’s a thing.
I am a definitely a heart-centered, sensitive person and when my emotional region gets punched in the heart, I go down. But I always get back up.
That’s a thing too.
So with forgiveness and compassion in my heart I’ve moved on and am getting back into the game. Life is way too short to stay in a place of hurt and negativity. And wasn’t nobody stressin but me. So fuck it. I let that shit go.
A few weeks ago I wrote a post saying that I was tired of being fat. That I wanted to get back to a healthier me. A sexier me. That I have no excuse for not doing this since I have a background in fitness and know my body well.
I decided I was going to see if I could create a new healthy habit using the 21 day rule. You know the one all the experts swear by: that it takes 21 days to break or create a habit? Yah, that one.
My initial goal was simple. Meditate and walk. The first baby steps on this journey to a healthier me. Just meditate every day for at least 10 minutes, and try to reach 10000 steps on my Fitbit every day.
I believe overwhelm is the reason why so many people fall off the wagon and give up on weight loss, myself included, so I purposely set a SMART goal cuz failure was not an option.
I actually got to day 10. Yay me!!!
I meditated. Did my daily 10000 steps. It was awesome and I felt amazing! But then the emotional shit hit the fan and I fell off the wagon and into that fucking rabbit hole. 😏 But I’m happy to say that I climbed back up and am back in the game with a renewed sense of “I can do this-ness!”
I still have some emotional shit circling the drain, but to be honest, I think I always will. I’m a woman. I’m emotional. I’m sensitive.
Meh…story of my life.
I’m on a short holiday right now and I know I’m gonna be a little bad…well maybe a lot bad 😉, so I’m making no promises until Saturday July 20 when I’m back to work. Vacations are no time to start behavin!
But I am definitely feeling emotionally, mentally and physically ready to get back on the wagon and complete this personal 21 day challenge. I still want my sexy back!!!
So happy summer!
Kiss the sun.
Enjoy your life.
And don’t let anyone dull your fucking sparkle!😊
Love and light,