I came into work this morning with a new energy. It feels good. I feel good. I can’t remember when I felt so light. This coming out experience has not only been crooked, it’s been fucking jagged and rough. And while its had its beautiful moments, its been full of too much heartache.
Still…I wouldn’t change it for the world. (Okay, maybe for the world.)
But it’s a thing.
Recently, I’ve been seeking answers. Finding them. Circling the rabbit hole. Dropping over the edge for a minute. And then pulling myself back up. Life has never been what I expected it to be from day one so I’m not sure why I thought it would be predictable now. 😏
I’m seriously considering shutting down this blog tho. That conversation I’ve been having for 10 years has reached a natural end. But I’m a sentimentalist and it still holds a special place for me. Part of my journey. My history. Part of me. But I’m feeling the need for a new private space for me to write.
I need my anonymity back.
But not today.
Today I’m at work, and some groovy tune-age is the backdrop. My deaf-blind clients are watching movies. Lol I know how twisted that sounds but they do have some vision and really enjoy the movie-watching experience, so it’s all good. And while they watch Frozen and Fast and Furious for the 100th time, I’ve got the tunes cranked. Boogie-ing, singing like-ima-rockstar lol, cleaning and yup, a little bit of writing.
It’s a sweet gig. Kinda likin’ that.
Sometimes it doesn’t feel like a job at all. Kinda likin’ that too.
And tonight we’re celebrating Mother’s Day with pizza which means I don’t even have to cook! Double woot!
So, I’m sitting at the computer, writing my notes, thinking about my crazy life, when my iPod switches to a 70’s vibe.
Morris Albert’s FEELINGS blasts out of the rock blocker speaker and after a quick mental WTF, I’m suddenly blasting my vocals right along with it. Some songs really do have to be played LOUD! And sung loud lol. Off key really doesn’t matter at this point. And suddenly a flood of memories come rushing back. Me and my friends crooning to this song as teenagers. Fifth Harmony got nothing on my girls hahaha! What a fun memory! Morris Albert was the butt of so many jokes back in the day, poor guy. No wonder he was a one hit wonder. But today he was a welcome old friend who showered me with the warmth of sweet nostalgia. It felt so good to sing his song loud and with feeling lol. See what I did there. 😉
Grand Funks Railroads Loco-Motion! Wow! I remember learning how to roller skate. On actual wheels. Four of them on each foot. Right?! What a blast. All the cool kids were doing it lol. I got pretty good too! Sometimes I was even the one who started the line!
The 70’s had some awesome music and depending on which end of spectrum you were sitting on – soft rock, heavy metal or country – there was some really good shit being written. Songs that, today, can take you right back to wherever you were in that moment. If you’re like a hundred lol. I was definitely a soft rocker and lover of the romantic stuff…big surprise. And I have no idea, nor do I care, if these songs were listened to by lesbians. I wasn’t anywhere close to being out. And the music was for my heart and soul and shaking my ass, not my vagina. 😉
Aaaah. Memories. Oooooh! Loved me some Barbra too. See, I did it again lol.
Here’s part of my 70’s Sunday playlist that’s got me hip swaying, broom dancing and singing loud. (Thank god I am loved at work lol.)
Slow Dancing – Johnny Rivers
Sad Eyes – Robert John
Lay A Little Loving On Me – Robin McNamara
Baby Don’t Get Hooked On Me – Mac Davis
I Go Crazy – Paul Davis
Baby Come Back – Player
I’d Really Love To See You Tonight – England Dan & John Ford Coley
Don’t Pull Your Love – Joe Frank & Reynolds
The Night The Lights Went Out In Georgia – Vicki Lawrence (who knew?)
Wildfire – Michael Martin Murphey
Everybody Plays The Fool – The Main Ingredient
Goodbye Girl – David Gates (OMG Dick Clark is like “cool man” lol)
Oh man. There are so many! And the videos are killer. Those clothes…and the hair lmao.
Wow. Good times.
Sing them loud! It’s fucking therapeutic!
Oh…and Happy Mother’s Day to the moms.
I’m celebrating too. ❤
K…back to work lol. No. Really.