My heart is
Desperately holding on
To something lost to me
The dream seemed so pure
So simple
So free
I had it, I thought
Or did I ever?
Maybe the dream is simply
Believing that you do
I don’t know anymore
My days are sadness again
My nights filled with horrors
I don’t sleep anymore
Empty, haunted
The shell of a familiar aching
For something…
For her?
It has always been her
Inside my light
Inside my dark
Inside my questions
Inside my hurt
Inside my love
Always wanting so deeply
Craving with my soul
The love she promised
Did I just imagine her?
Was any of it real?
Was any of it real?
I question, I regret
And then I die
Vanishing a little each day
Soon to be nothing more
Then a memory
Of who I used to be
I can not live here
In this place of sorrow
Where the days blend
Gray and lifeless
No color, no joy
Nothing and no one my rainbow of hope
I need release
Please God, I’m praying
Release me from the blackness
And let me find the light
Or resign me to fate
And let me sleep the sleep
Of the star crossed lover
Release me please
With life or death
I don’t care which anymore
For I can not do this
I can not do
The in between
I truly don’t know how

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A late-bloomer who definitely came out crooked, dove in, got a little broken, patched herself up again and...voila! Upright ;) Sort of lol.

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