From Here To There

She said leaving wasn’t an option
And I always thought she meant it
I suppose she did
Once upon a time ago
I don’t know anymore
But it doesn’t matter now
She’s gone to find her happiness
Tho she didn’t really stay very long
Has big ideas
Of what love should be
Said I could never have given her
What she needed
What she wanted
That cut me deep
She had my love, my life,
My everything
Was my universe, my very breath
And she never even knew it
I live, breathe and want her still
But I guess that was never enough
She just kept pushing and pushing for…???
Perfection?
I wonder if she even truly knows
Love is not perfect
It never has been
Not even in the best of fairytales
But good luck to her
I hope she finds what she’s looking for
But I know
That no-one
Will ever get her
Like I did…

Child, woman,
Lover, dreamer,
Fantasy driven,
Sexual manipulator,
Emotional blackmailer,
Unrealistic,
Devil, angel,
Tormentor, mentor
Selfish, giving
Charming, passionate, eager
Beautiful P

I’m not bitter
Just hurt and angry and sadly disillusioned
But I know one day
This longing for her will go away
And she will fade into the place of bittersweet memory

Hearts can be so fucking fickle

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