Anonymous

I have listened to
Your last hurtful breath
And taken the blame deep in my soul
For your pain and your anguish
But I never betrayed you
I loved you
I listened with my heart
And I heard you
I saw what you felt
And I wanted to comfort you
I tried to tell you
I’m sorry

But you don’t know me anymore

I’m not like you
I don’t fight like you
I don’t rage like you
I don’t lash out like you
I don’t willfully hurt like you
And I don’t bounce back like you
Today I felt my heart shatter
Into a million painful pieces
With every word you spit at me
I shook, I felt weak
Was so terribly heartsick
And something broke inside of me
I don’t think I will ever recover

I feel something now
I have never felt from you
Hostility
Loathing
Coldness
Hate
And real or imagined
It’s so much more then I can take

I don’t know you anymore

And I just died
My one thousandth death

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