Lingering…

She says she holds back now
Internalizes
Waits
She’s just settling for me as I am
In hopes that another me
Will eventually come out and
Give her what she needs
How am I supposed to feel now
Knowing she isn’t happy
Truly happy, with me
Isn’t getting what she needs
That she’s given up on her dream
Of what love is to her
Instead only half in, half out
Half coloured, half grey
Half loved, half in love
Half alive
Yet she stays, makes love to me
And seems to need my attention
Yet all the while…
She is dissatisfied

I am confused
Why does she stay?
Why do I stay?
That’s not what I want for her
And it’s not what I want for me
Is this just a lingering goodbye?

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