This space. This magical, beautiful place.
Where I’ve cried. And laughed.
Suffered so openly. And loved so honestly…
Which once held all my hopes for a future that was never mine to have
Isn’t serving me
It doesn’t matter how I try to re-dress it
The wound still festers deep
But I finally understand
I have been alone in this loving
Alone in this grieving
Alone in my heart
For far, far too long.
I will continue to write. Because I have to write.
To scribe my hearts exploration.
But I will create a new space. Begin with a clean slate.
For I just can’t write it here
I need my anonymity
This shell will remain. To preserve the name.
It is mine. And kinda personal.
But this graveyard of loss and memory
Quite simply put
And I need it to stop.
After a long and painful and bitter-sweet learning
The letting go has finally taken place.
Ultimately, you have taught me
That life does go on.
For those of you who took the time, care and patience
To comment and show your support
I’ve recorded your blog names
I’ll find you again
I Promise xo
To the rest of my lovely followers
In love and light, I wish you all that is happy.
I will flow in my text
Dream in the spaces between the lines
Answer my souls calling
And breathe in the colors of the wind
Fly in my imagination
To a place kind and warm
And just wait for me to show up
This is clear to me now:
In this lifetime
My truth was not meant
For your heart to hear.